Morning Prayer

Ishvara pranidhana.  I release all attachment to the outcome, and the illusion that I comprehend what is going on.  I acknowledge that the complexity of this experience and the factors involved is unfathomable to the mind, and release all resistance, and efforts to hold things in some way in which  i "think" they should be.

May my body mind and heart serve as a conduit for the flow of unconditional love out into my family, friends, community and world.  May this practice in some way serve others.

May the frequency of my resonant aspects (multidimensional body) resonate gratitude, appreciation, compassion and my my practice of life amplify this frequency in a way that points towards liberation.

May body and all body systems sing this loving frequency, and my I recognize challenges as necessary adjustments which align these manifest aspects in a away in which direct perception of truth is possible.

May I be guided by and responsive to the flow which leads towards highest liberation.

Om Shantih, Shantih, Shantih

On Single Pointedness and Mantra.

One method of moving throughout deeper through the layers of the subconscious is Single pointedness.    Patanjali points out that this could be single pointed focus on breathe, a mantra, the memory of a spiritual dream, or anything at all.  If you have a mantra given to you by a teacher you could use that, or if you don you could use a personal mantra.  Your mantra could be "Banana".  It is not important what the nature of the mantra is, but rather that single pointedness is employed.

A lot of times this is interpreted as unbroken awareness on a single point.  This is good, but not necessary at first.  Thoughts may periodically distract one us from our single point.  Continuity is established when we become aware that we were distracted and bring awareness back to the single point.  As this practice is maintained for some duration the body, the nervous system and the mind become very relaxed.  Normally as relaxation becomes deeper, we might fall asleep, or become unconscious.  By maintaining the single point of focus, some part of the conscious is able to remain awake even as the body and mind settle.

This is a tremendous tool for seeing beyond the filters of the mind.  It is very difficult to see beyond the minds filters.  When the mind relaxes enough though the filters go down.  Then we might get a glimpse of the sub conscious.  This seems often to be movements of mind which though they may make some sort of intuitive sense, have no context in the logical mind.  If we were to try to examine this subtle world with the the logical mind, filters would go back up.  Releasing preference for or against things "making sense" is definitely a requirement to journey deeper.

Spirit Class

At 5:00 am, the streets are dark.  On Sundays, I often make it from my house to the studio with out passing single other driver.

Arriving at the studio I unlock the door and turn off the alarm.  The door automatically locks again behind me as it closes.  The lights are out, in the lobby, there's no reason to turn them on.

In the studio I lay down my mat and light a candle.  Then I wait for the teacher and students to show up.  There is no need to unlock the door.  No "body" is at the studio at this time of day.  Later as it starts to get light Ellie arrives to practice in the upstairs studio.

The class I am attending doesn't have a time on the schedule.  But for one who pays careful attention the teacher is here, and periodically to other non-physical students.

This is a spirit class.  It begins before the crepuscule and ends as the city begins to awaken.

Every day I come down here to be in this space.  Who will show up?  You never know.  But one who pays attention might be able to learn something

Drilling Deep with Mantra and a Dream Sequence

Have been working on bringing awareness deeper and deeper into the sleep state.  Repeating the mantra again and again and again as awareness goes deeper and deeper.  Have experienced vibratory states, no mind and even pratyahara.   Excited to keep working with it.

Last night the dreams were very vivid from the earliest I remember I was on a street, and I had a childs tennis racket.  Someone was hitting tennis balls long, and I tried to retrieve it.  I didn't have the hand eye coordination to hit the ball.  An old woman came out of here house like (what is all that noise).  I was barefoot walking across the city with Misha now.  There was some kind of event going on, people everywhere.  We ducked into a friends house, someone we new slightly from South High.  I talked to her and even though she was not physically beautiful, I made an effort to let her know that I valued her presence as a divine human being.  I said we should hang out at a coffee shop or something.  I tried to put on my shoes to leave, they were new fancy sandals with string attached on the soul.  I was concerned they would break…. They must have broke because then I left, carrying Edwin out onto the street barefoot.  It was like Bloomington and Lake and the street was all eaten up from construction.  My feet hurt on the hardness of the concrete, with every step.  I had to be very mindful with each step looking where I place my foot.  Extremely vivid.

Then we found J.  We reminisced on when we first meant and then began to make love.  I was very cautious to go slow so we didn't orgasm.  And we made beautiful love, and didn't go over the edge.  At one point James and Matthew Tabaka walked by outside with a big group.  They were right outside our window, only separated by a screen.  I pulled a blanket over me and Jaina so they would look in and see us.

Earlier I had been in a big condo, maybe my parents.  Cousin Tanya was there in the prime of her beauty and she had rotweiler puppy.  Aunt  Susie and grandma Dorris showed up.  There was some dynamic, but I can't put my finger on it now.

Frequency

Been working extensively on frequency.  Maintaining  Chitta Prasadanam, pleasant mind.  Gratitude, appreciation, compassion for suffering.  The effect on the nervous system is stunning.  The muscles stay relaxed.  As disharmony  arises around me there are moments of realizing that all I have to do is remain in integrity.  These things will pass.

Tulsi

Believe that its Tulsi, now, which invokes the night awareness associated with vortex and more.  The last several times I've slipped have all been dreams about Jaina.  Last night, I almost slipped but shot up in bed, engaged all the bandhas.  No spasm, didn't loose a drop.  Some what earlier, I had been asleep but feeling the energy waves move through my whole body.

Guru?

MEt someone who was enlightened yesterday.

They came in for a consult because they never sleep.

I asked if it was a problem,a don't they said that all day long, even thought they have a million things to do they don't think.  They just observe life, 24 hours a day knowing that they are not the body and the mind.

At one point we picked up the yoga sutras and went through the Vibhuti para

Dahrana, check

Dhyana, "oh thats what thats called"

Samayama "I get answers"

I asked them to teach me.

"I think the ego is the biggest thing."

"Stop trying"

"Any time you try you congest the flow"